I am no longer the girl who used to do things for people who didn’t feel like it or simply weren’t interested in putting in effort themselves. The girl who felt happy, excited and thankful for even the tiniest amount of affection being given to her, as she took whatever she could get!
I am not the same girl I was years ago. That girl was extremely trusting innocent, and even naïve. She used to see the best in people, as she simply didn’t know what these people were capable of doing. She had no idea about how difficult and painful heartbreak can be.
But, I am far more experienced now. I have been already hurt, betrayed, cheated on, and lied to. I have already seen the worst and darkest parts of the people I once believed in, so I am not trusting or optimistic anymore. At least, I don’t consider myself an optimist.
I should be angry and even bitter about all the bad stuff I have been through, but the truth is that I consider all of that shit and mess a good thing. How come, one would ask…Well, my darkest days helped me become stronger and turn into someone different, someone better!
I am not an unworthy opponent anymore. I will never ever let anyone treat me as a backup plan. I will never stay in a relationship with a person who doesn’t make a commitment. I am not planning on lowering my standards only because I have feelings for a person who obviously doesn’t feel the same.
I am not going to give out second chances anymore. I will not answer someone` s call or text if it took them days to respond to mine. I am not going to change my schedule to hang out with someone who keeps canceling or rescheduling. I will stop wasting my energy on making someone happy while ignoring my own happiness.
I will never ever let others take advantage of me anymore! I will stop helping out friends if my schedule is tight. I will not kiss someone I don’t like, only because they have bought me a drink at the bar. I will stop feeling obliged to do something for someone when I have a choice.
I am not the same quiet and naïve girl who used to go with the flow and who used to allow people take advantage of her. I am not the same, the one who thought highly of everyone, yet so little of herself.
Many people say that I am no longer nice and kind. Others say that they have liked me before more, because back then I would do anything for them.
I am happy with what I have become, as I have finally acknowledged my worth. I have raised my standards to where they were supposed to be all along. I chose to prioritize myself and put my own needs and desires first. I realized that I deserve much more than some people are ready to give me, which is completely fine. I am the one who can walk away anytime…