Dear God, my soul is exhausted. I feel like I am giving and giving until I am bare and there is no one to fill me up. There is no one to give me their love, touch my tired hands, and lift my sore spirit.
It feels like I do care too much. Like I go for the wrong things and the wrong people. Like I allow people to abuse me and take advantage of me as I am not strong enough to turn them away. I feel like I am unable to stop when needed and take control over my own life.
I often feel like I am trying so hard to do things right and be a good person, but eventually, end up exhausted and torn to pieces. All of sudden, I cannot remember who I truly am or what YOU want me to do.
But, I do not want to go on like this.
I do not want to spend my time crying over the things that are out of my control. I do want to search for something that is far away, instead of looking what is in front of me.
God, I want to feel you and to know that you are here for me. I want to feel your warmth and the light that is guiding my path. I NEED YOU!
I often forget about the things you have given me as I focus on my selfishness. But, I will let you carve my story, my path, my life… I will rely on your strength and focus on the person I have become as your child.
I will let you do your work and make your plan for me. Instead of keeping out, I will fully surrender to you. After all, you are the one who knows where I am headed. You are the one who knows the purpose I will fulfill.
I will stop caring about others` opinion and celebrate the fact that you made me who I am. And that you love me, at all costs.
I will remember this verse,
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
I will let you carve my path, guide me, build me, and heal me! I will trust you no matter what and believe that I have nothing to fear as long as you are here with me. I will trust you, and I will start doing it right away, in this prayer to YOU!
I pray for your Will to be done, as after all, you “work all things according to the counsel of your Will”.