Another Year, Another Chapter, Another Goodbye

Have you started preparing yourself to wave goodbye to 2017? I have! And as I am doing it, I cannot help but wonder why I always feel sad and disappointed if a year ends without something really amazing taking place in it.

Each and every year I say to myself ‘this is going to be my year’. And then, I end up disappointed when it ends in the exact manner it began. This made me realize that while not every year will be MY year, it doesn’t mean that it is a bad one. I started thinking about this from other perspective.  Maybe this year is only a boring chapter that leads to another, exciting one. The chapter you go through before you move to the next one is what makes you want to emphasize every single word.

If feels like God is writing a different story for me every year. The stories differ and simply don’t align. We don’t speak the very same language every year, but I am coming to terms with the fact that this is completely fine.  The fact that I don’t have the final word in my story is not so bad though.  It is okay that I am not the one who decides about everything.  I accept that it is not up to me to make some people stay if they are bound to leave.

After all, this is only one chapter in my book.  It is only a couple of pages from a thousand of pages. It is an addition to the previous chapter or an introduction to the next one.

As noted in the very beginning of this article, I prepare to close the chapter of this year.  I am prepared to embrace the things that happened and let go of the ones that didn’t.  This year doesn’t define me and it doesn’t set rules for years to come.  It isn’t a book, rather a chapter of my story.  So, it doesn’t have to be a turning point in my life.

It doesn’t have to be an extraordinary year, just like movies and novels don’t have extraordinary parts but they serve to complete the story.  The story would be incomplete without these parts.  In other words, while this year might be ordinary, it is vital for the next chapter and the next year.

This is the way I have started to look at it.  I will no longer think about how bad or boring it was.  I will not say I was insignificant year, a year to forget.  Nonetheless, I will accept it as part of my story and look at it wisely.  I will look at it as a bridge to something far better and more extraordinary.

It is another year preparing me for something better. It is another chapter of my book ending, so that a better one could start.  As Melody Beattie said, “The new year stands before us, like a chapter in a book, waiting to be written. We can help write that story by setting goals.”